Your connection with darkness is through your hate. It's burning from the inside and you feel it strongly everyday. All kinds of things make you hate; the governmate, teachers/the boss, students in school/work, family etc. Well, you feel like the world and everyone in it hates you, so you hate it and everyone back. You probaly don't like changes since nothing good ever comes out of them. Though your hate is big, you can still have a soft spot in your heart for someone. You're not numb or anything, your problem lies in that you feel too much. Life is too damn complicated, isn't it?

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Your word is: Brooding. You are a true thinker and often try to figure out the meaning of life, why we are all here etc. You may not be so social, and often think twice before acting but those thoughts you have in your mind never stop flowing in. Sometimes you can be so concentrated you forget about other things that you have to do. Don't change, this world needs deep people. --------- Your connection with darkness is through your depression. Hated, sad and often feeling lonely, there is only a few that appreciate the real you. You tend to keep to yourself and away from the world since you don't want to be hurt and betrayed again. Music gives you the understanding you need to get through, it's your "therapy". Or you express yourself through art or writing. Chances are you're also an anti-social person, who only likes being with close friends, if even that. The world has finally showed it's true face for you and you wish life wasn't this miserable to live through. Maybe you'll find happiness in the future, but right now you're just hiding away from the world. Who needs people anyway?

This is a poem done by me...and it tells you of painful times, of harsh times, or at least it is to me. This poem is created for reflection...for you to see how similar or how different your life is compared to mine. Maybe you live and maybe you don't.....it all depends on who you are....do YOU know who YOU are?

-Empty-

"I look around my room only to find it empty

bare deserted with me the only exception

its rather dark in here and i'd prefer it that way

seeing tears cascade down my cheeks

makes me just want to wipe them away

but i know its fruitless more will just come

i bet ur wondering why i'm crying

in fact ur wondering how i can even cry

i act happy when i'm around you

i act hyper everywhere i go

i'm so socialable you'd never think to see what's really writhing underneath

i act this way and i act that way

but never acting sad but lyke i said....

its just an act

no one knows this because no one cares

i hate it when the truth whirls around me lyke its doing now

but i got used to it seeing as it whirls aorund my head every waking moment

well i cry because i'm lonely

i cry because no one cares

i cry because no one cares to give me more then just one glance

so why shouldnt i end it all and die rite here

and i guess you're also wondering what's been keeping me ticking till rite here and now

well i guess the watch or clock only goes tic toc

with the hope that there's someone out there

whether to just comfort me or to love me

i dunt care its not lyke it matters

I dunt care because no one cares

i dunt attach myself to you worthless poeple because ur just that....worthless

you can do nothing for me so why should i bother

i don't need friends yet you all still flock to me

why can't you all go away?

why can't you all leave me alone?

why i ask myself and i know the answer

but i cannot accpet it its too painful and i know it because

you all do care but you can't figure it out

you care but i already know there's only one way out

you can say im scared but at least i'm not fooling myself 

so to say, its sayonara forever and goodnight"

uh.....ok...look this is mai third site so...its kinda gttin old fur me..so heres =mai other two sites:

www.xanga.com/akakawaiiprincess and www.xanga.com/darksaphire